Rainin like cats and dogs

ugh ujan gede banget neh huhuhuhuhu
harusnya pulang jadi nongkrong di lab dah
huhuhuhuhu
'

Drowning - Crazy Town

Everything is so complex, everyday is like a test full of opticals.

That almost seem impossible, and I'm thinking just another breath,

not a minute left. How long have I been drinking?

Pass the glass pint, hit the flash light now break it.

People say I'm a star, but I still think ill never make it.

And I'm thinking just another prayer not a second left.

I feel there's something missing

Sometimes I hate that chaos surrounds me, when all the answers I see go around me.

Am I drowning? Am I fading away?

OR am I living up to all your dreams that made me this way?

Am I drowning? Am I drowning?

Am I drowning? Am I drowning?

I've been to hell and back looking for the answers to life.

Looking at myself trying to get things right.

And I'm feeling just another breath not a minute left.

I feel the darkness lifting.

There was a time that I questioned if I'd ever be all right.

Running getting high staying trapped by sleepless nights.

And I'm thinking just another breath not a minute left.

I feel there's something missing.

I'm running from myself and all the things I don't like.

Living every night like it's the last night.

And I'm thinking just another prayer not a second left.

I need to stop resisting.

Sometimes I hate that chaos surrounds me, when all the answers

I see go around me. Am I drowning? Am I fading away?

OR am I living up to all your dreams that made me this way?

Am I drowning? Am I drowning? Am I drowning? Am I drowning?

Drowning in the drama lost in the lies, trapped by the currents of life caught in the rip tides.

Drowning in the drama lost in the lies, trapped by the currents of life caught in the rip tides.

Drowning in the drama lost in the lies, trapped by the currents of life caught in the rip tides.

Drowning in the drama lost in the lies, trapped by the currents of life caught in the rip tides.

Am I drowning? Am I drowning? Am I drowning? Am I drowning?

Sometimes I hate that chaos surrounds me, when all the answers I see go around me.

Am I drowning?

Am I fading away? Or am I living up to all your dreams that made me this way?

Am I drowning? Am I drowning?

Am I drowning? Am I drowning?

Drowning in the drama lost in the lies, trapped by the currents of life caught in the rip tides.

Drowning in the drama lost in the lies, trapped by the currents of life caught in the rip tides.

Moving on - 911

Moving on our way
Moving on our way

I will always remember
Our first days together
It felt like we had known each other forever
We were dreamers
And we were believers
To give up everything
To follow this dream
But one thing that we have learnt
Is to stand, together as one
And nothing will overcome
And nothing's gonna stop us now
Moving on our way

Chorus:
We're moving on in the one direction
We're growing stronger with each passing day
We're moving on we'll always remember
All of our friends all along away
Moving on our way

Now there's been hard times
As the road unwinds
We've grown closer
It's been worth all the sacrifice
Time are changing
And I hear what you say
Can't look at the world
Through innocent eyes
We promise we will never forget the message
Keep the faith as long as your here
By our side
We'll make this music last for all time
Moving on our way

Moving on our way

Moving on our way
Moving on our way

I will always remember
Our first days together
It felt like we had known each other forever
We were dreamers
And we were believers
To give up everything
To follow this dream
But one thing that we have learnt
Is to stand, together as one
And nothing will overcome
And nothing's gonna stop us now
Moving on our way

Chorus:
We're moving on in the one direction
We're growing stronger with each passing day
We're moving on we'll always remember
All of our friends all along away
Moving on our way

Now there's been hard times
As the road unwinds
We've grown closer
It's been worth all the sacrifice
Time are changing
And I hear what you say
Can't look at the world
Through innocent eyes
We promise we will never forget the message
Keep the faith as long as your here
By our side
We'll make this music last for all time
Moving on our way

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Christina Aguilera - Somebody's somebody

lagu jomblow :)

Wish I had somebody
Wish I was somebody's baby
Somebody's somebody
Somebody's somebody

Watchin' lovers walkin'
Hand in hand, they pass me by
Wish I was one of them
Wish I had somebody
Wakin' up beside me
Looking into my eyes at night
I want a love to call my own
I want someone that I can hold
Want someone wanting me
Wanna feel how it feels to be

(Chorus:)
Somebody's somebody
Someone's someone
Some sweet lover's lover
I wanna be that one
Someone faithful to someone faithful
Someone kind to someone kind to me
Somebody to somebody
Who loves me, who loves me

Spending all of my time
Spending all my time on me
Where is that someone who
I can give my time to?
Searching for that lover
With a love that will change my life
I want two arms to hold me close
I want the thing I need the most
Somebody needing me
So I can feel how it feels to be, to be

(Repeat chorus)

(Bridge:)
What I'm looking for
Is someone to love me more
Than I've been loved before
With love so right
What I need to find
Is someone to hold me tight
What I mean is
I want to be

(Repeat chorus)

Who loves me...

Somebody's somebody
Somebody's somebody...

Jeda tiga jam

huhuhuhu hari ini kuliah jeda 3 jam
jadinya gw lagi nongkrong warnet neh...
masuk baru jam 1/2 12

Lighthouse Family - Goodbye Heartbreak

SOng of the day...
LIghthoue family... great song
great lyrics..
--------------


Don't be blind
In all the fated life.
Something great is happening in your life
But all the noise
Is drowning out your voice.
No wonder you've been feeling down
From time to time.
You know that you'll survive
The day you realise
You can't stop day from turning into night
Hey, you know you're gonna live
To find another day,
It's just today things ain't so good.
Get yourself back again,
You've got so much love
That you can't afford to lose
Goodbye Heartbreak
Heartbreak
Don't look for me
'Cause I don't need you now.
So long heartache
Heartache
Don't look for me
'Cause I don't need you now.
I don't need you now
I don't need you now
I don't need you now
Hey
I don't need you now
I don't need you now
I don't need you now
Hey.
Do you remember as a girl,
You had a picture of the world
And you'd think about the great things you would find?
The thing is 9 to 5

And a struggle to survive
Ain't exactly what you had in mind.
But that's the beauty of life,
It akes a while to find,
And you can't have things your own way all the time
Hey, you know you're gonna live
To find another day,
It's just today things ain't so good.
Get yourself back again,
You've got so much love
That you can't afford to lose
Goodbye Heartbreak
Heartbreak
Don't look for me
'Cause I don't need you now.
So long heartache
Heartache
Don't look for me
'Cause I don't need you now.
I don't need you now
I don't need you now
I don't need you now
Hey
I don't need you now
I don't need you now
I don't need you now
Hey.
Goodbye Heartbreak
Heartbreak
Don't look for me
'Cause I don't need you now.
So long heartache
Heartache
Don't look for me
'Cause I don't need you now.
I don't need you now
I don't need you now...

Iris - Goo Goo Dolls

And I’d give up forever to touch you
’cause I know that you feel me somehow
You’re the closest to heaven that i’ll
Ever be
And I don’t want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
’cause sooner or later it’s over
I just don’t want to miss you tonight

And I don’t want the world to see me
’cause I don’t think that they’d
Understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t
Coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you’re alive

And I don’t want the world to see me
’cause I don’t think that they’d
Understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don’t want the world to see me
’cause I don’t think that they’d
Understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don’t want the world to see me
’cause I don’t think that they’d
Understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

Today

WEh hari ini ke kampus.. ternyata oh ternyata jadwal diganti
gw jadi kelewat satu mata kuliah yang jam 8 soalnya gw ke kampus jam 10
trus jadinya ke rumah kk dulu jenguk ponakan
soalnya kuliah berikutnya jam 4!!!
gila neh jadwal... untungnya senen tetep libur.. amin

Nine Days - Story of a Girl

dari kemaren2 lagu yang gw tulis slow semua..
yang ini agak lumayan lah rock dikit

this song kinda reminds me of someone
not really though..

This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...

How many days in a year?
She woke up with hope but she only found tears.
And I can be so insincere,
Making her promises never for real!
As long as she stands there waiting,
Wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes!
How many days disappear?
When you look in the mirror so how do you choose?
Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say...

THIS IS THE STORY OF A GIRL,
WHO CRIED A RIVER AND DROWNED THE WHOLE WORLD!
AND WHILE SHE LOOKED SO SAD IN PHOTOGRAPHS,
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HER,
WHEN SHE SMILES...

How many lovers would stay?
Just to put of with this shit day after day!
How did we wind up this way?
Watching our mouths for the words that we say.
As long as we stand here waiting,
Wearing the clothes of the souls that we choose!
How do we get there today?
When we're walking to far for the price of our shoes!
Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say!...

THIS IS THE STORY OF A GIRL,
WHO CRIED A RIVER AND DROWNED THE WHOLE WORLD!
AND WHILE SHE LOOKED SO SAD IN PHOTOGRAPHS,
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HER,
WHEN SHE SMILES...

Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say...
This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looks so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her-

This is the story of a girl;
Her pretty face she hid from the world!
And while she looks so sad and lonely there,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...

This is the story of a - girl!
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looks so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...
When she smiles.

Shine - Jaci

Song of the Day
Shine - Jaci Velasquez.
It's my favourite track on her unspoken album.
She's gonna released a new album. Yippy!! I hope it will get here soon :)

You will make the change
And you'll begin today
You will turn around and
See the world another way
You'll stand up tall
And move with grace
And you will see yourself
In every face, every face

You'll open up your eyes
Like the sunrise
Your heart will fly and you'll realize
What a gift is to be alive, be alive
Be alive.

Chorus
Shine...Shine on
Shine...Shine on
On and on

You will feel the heat
So soft, so sweet
You will listen long and well
Before you humbly speak
You'll walk that mile
Be the first to smile
To reach out you hand and
Reconcile, reconcile

And in the end you'll make amends
Be a true friend, strong enough to bend
Be grateful when you start again,
Start again
When you start again.

Chorus

Shines?

All I ever wanted to be... is to shine..
Shine on other people.. their lives
There's a lot of people that i felt has shined my life...
I hope i shined on theirs too.

I want to make my friends happy.
I'm not happy if one of my friend is not happy.
Sometimes.. when i'm not happy, i'll hide that feeling,
but lately i'm showing too much.

But when i'm not happy, i always try to smile.

Today

Wah hari ini ngapain aja yah,
ke kampus cari pengumuman ternyata gak ada.
Cek account bwat meriksa udah di autodebet ato blon, ternyata udah.
sekarang terdampar di warnet dah

I will be your friend

Song of the day... it's about friendship...........

If the wind will blow
I will hold your hand
When the sun won't shine
I will never fade away

When the tears appear
To wipe away your smile
Don't be afraid
I'll be here

I will be your friend
Who will always care
I'll be the first to catch you
If ever you should fall
And hold you in my arms
I will be your friend

If you lose your place
In life's crazy race
You can make it through
'Cause I will run with you

We'll always pray
And believe in our hearts
That God will be here
By our side

I will be your friend
Who will always care
I'll be the first to catch you
If ever you should fall
And hold you in my arms
I will be your friend

God knows our imperfections
And He loves us anyway
A closer friend than I could ever be
But a little piece of heaven
I will do my best to bring
You'll never have to search again

I will be your friend
Who will always care
I'll be the first to catch you
If ever you should fall
And hold you in my arms
I will be your friend

I will be your friend
One who will always care
I'll be a little closer
When you feel so far away
And hold you in my arms
I will be your friend

Private Number - 911

The Song of the day-nya ryan hari ini

Since I’ve been gone
You’ve had your number changed, ooh yeah
But my love for you, girl
Still remains the same, mmm
Now, I’ve been loving you and
You’ve been loving me so long
Baby, what’s wrong
So I’m asking

Baby, baby, baby
Please let me have your number, yeah
Baby, baby, baby
Please let me have your number, ooh

I’m sorry you couldn’t call me when you were gone
Well I tried to call you, baby haah haah, baby
But other fellows kept on calling while you are gone, hmm yeah
So I had my number changed
But I’m not acting strange
Welcome home
Baby, nothing’s wrong
So I’m saying

Baby, baby, baby
You can have my private number
Baby, baby, baby
You can have my private number, oh

Oooh, so if I called ye
Will you be home
Oh, I will be waiting
There by the phone
Now I know your number
Though it’s been changed
Tell me now, baby
Love’s still remains
I've, I've been loving you I’ve been loving you
You've been loving me You’ve been loving me so long, oh, so long baby
Nothing’s wrong
So I’m asking

Baby, baby, baby
You can have my private number
Baby, baby, baby
You’ve given me your private number

You know I want, you know I want
You know I need, you know I need
You baby
Baby, baby, baby, baby

You know I want, you know I want
You know I need, you know I need
You baby

Hoooh...
You know I want
You know I need
You baby

Sleep Well?

tadi malem tidur nyenyak bgt...
kayanya ada hubungan gara2 malemnya...
gak ada yang namanya bangun bangun...
bangun jam 8 langsung cek orenz...
chat sana sini..
kadang chat juga ke Y!M ada temen yang jauh di sana nongkrong di Y!M

Patti Austin - Say you love me

Biasanya gak tau kenapa tiap hari di otak gw tuh muncul satu lagu...
hari ini lagunya Say u luv me - patti austin

Don’t you know that I want to be more than just your friend
Holdin’ hands is fine, but I’ve got better things on my mind
You know it could happen if you’d only see me in a different light
Maybe when we finally get together, you will see that I was right

Say you love me
You know that it could be nice
If you’d only say you love me
Don’t treat me like I was lice, ooh, woo, woo

Please love me
I’ll be yours and you’ll be mine
If you’d only say you love me, baby
Things would really work out fine

Don’t you know that I want to be more than just your friend
Holdin’ hands is fine, but I’ve got better things on my mind
You know it could happen if you’d only see me in a different light
Maybe when we finally get together, you will see that I was right

Say you love me
You know that it could be nice
If you’d only say you love me
Don’t treat me like I was lice, ooh, woo, woo

Please love me
I’ll be yours and you’ll be mine
If you’d only say you love me, darlin’
Things would really work out fine

Say that you love me
Mmm...mmm...ooh...ho...ho...
Say that you love me
Mmm...mmm...mmm...

Hoo...hoo...baby
Would you say you love me
You know that it could be nice
If you’d only say you love me
Don’t treat me like I was lice, ooh, woo, woo

Please love me
I’ll be yours and you’ll be mine
If you’d only say you love me, baby
Things would really work out fine

If you’d only say you love me, darlin’
Things would really work out fine
If you’d only say you love me, darlin’
Things would really work out fine

A Jaci Fanatic?

Kenapa gw ngefans ama jaci velasquez?

Begini ceritanya.... (hehehe)
Jadi awalnya gw liat dia di sebuah award di tv,
klo ga salah the 1st latin grammy awards..
trus waktu liat weh cantik bgt.
Udah gitu kebetulan pacar kaka gw (sekarang kaka ipar gw)
baru pulang dari amrik nah dia bawa CD jaci dua biji pesenan temennya
trus direkamin deh, ilegal seh tapi dah gw buang kok rekamannya soalnya gw dah punya yang asli.
Waktu denger lagunya langsung jatcin deh.... ini kejadian pas smp.
Waktu kk ipar gw pergi lagi ke amrik pulangnya gw dibeliin CD nya satu.
Waktu SMA gw kebetulan ke Toko Buku Visi nah ternyata banyak kaset dia walaupun impor jadi agak mahal dikit, gw beli deh smuanya.
Mulai dari yang ada flower in the rain sampe Unspoken yang baru keluar taun kemaren.
Semuanya udah lengkap tinggal satu lagi, Christmas Album versi spanish... nyari2 gak nemu... maybe next time lha...

Mood Swings

Tiba2 gw bt...........
gak tau sebanya secara jelas...
tapi tiba tiba bt aja,
jarang bgt gw sampe bt gitu.... se bt btnya gw pasti masih bisa senyum
maybe it's just a temporary mood swings

Who Am I?

Udah beberapa kali post tapi blon memperkenalkan diri..

Nama gw Philippe Ryan Octavianus, Phil nama baptist.
Lahir di keluarga yang sejujurnya cukup bahagia,
walaupun talah banyak masalah menerpa keluarga gw
(ciee menerpa...)
Bungsu dari 4 bersaudara (2 co, 2 ce selang seling)
Sebenernya gw adalah hasil dari suatu ketidaksengajaan yang tidak terduga..
:))
waktu gw lahir mama dah sekitar 39 tahun jadi telat gitu...
agak2 surprise2 kayanya waktu mama hamil gw...
kondisi keluarga lagi gak baek, tanbah gw lahir
but they keep me anyway... cos i know they love me
gw beda 9 tahun ama kk terdeket...

Masa kecil?
gw bilang bahagia lah.. yang sudah dilewati gw anggap aja bahagia..
waktu gw kecil kondisi eko keluarga lagi buruk bgt..
tv hitam putih dimaling pula.. malang bgt.. :)
udah masuk TK agak membaik, Gw TK di Yos Sudarso.
Gw inget satu hari lon bayar uang sekolah, trus pada hari terakhir bayar.
Guru gw dah nyegat di depan pintu nanya klo gw bawa uang skolah ato ga..
Untungnya gw udah bawa..

SD udah membaik gw Sd di BPPK yang sekarang jadi IP (Istana Plaza) ck ck ck
Kelas 3 pindah ke SD St. Agustinus.
SMP di Prova (Providentia) seneng banget skul di sini.
Temen gak gitu banyak tapi lingkungan-nya enak, banyak pohon, sejuk.
Guru2nya tegas dan ada beberapa yang galak tapi gw tetep seneng ma mereka.
Perpustakaannya... Ibu Sur penjaga perpust. Ibu Enny guru BI,
PA Endo and bu tini guru inggris.. PA JArwo, PA Tomo dan ibu yang dah bersedia jadi godfather and godmother, PA Tarigan yang galak, bucek dan bu darmi kantin, kak detta, suci, hamster, Handy, baso, yoseph, ferry wah bener2 enak lah....

SMA di SMA 5 bandung... orang2 pasti paling suka masa SMA tapi gw ngga...
Kuliah sekarang di Maranatha deh di IT so far so good..

today

hari ini ryan cuma di rumah aja..........
nothing special...
:)